All The Way There

I am here still waiting
though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best,
like you've already figured out
I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name I find meaning

- Broken, Lifehouse

I miss Shan, my BFF. Getting even more envious now that you get the chance to gawk at models (and yet, you chose not to!!) and shop for lingerie at La Senza.





All the way from Dubai, Shan sent me this.

-__-"


I confess: fictional characters are very very appealing. I've been in love (still am!) with Darcy, Justin, Luke, Bishop, all of Judith McNaught's male characters and other fictional characters. I guess what she sent me is fitting. There is something very mysterious and they give you this strange, satisfying out-of-the-world feeling to you.


Currently even more fitting because I spend every single waking hour thinking about Stefan Salvatore in the Vampire Diaries (Paul Wesley). Ghia and her book, and Michelle and her post about the show did this to me! But, I don't regret it at all because this is who I think about:



I've decided that a picture of Paul Wesley sums it all up.
How infatuated I am over Stefan, and how happy I am because Paul is the actor for this amazing character.
He is undeniably mine :)


There's only one problem here. Stefan (or Paul), hardly smiles! Just looking and watching him, makes my lips ache because I want to see him smile a big toothy grin. I Googled, "Paul Wesley smiling" and "Does Paul Wesley smile?"... but alas, to no avail.